Embrace Your Inner Broken Cookie!

Factory made cookies are all the exact same--the image of "The Perfect Cookie."  But is that necessarily better than that of the homemade variety?  I believe in eating the broken cookies.  Some people whether or not they are conscious of it, are opposed to and choose to avoid the misshapen and imperfect bath.  Im my line of work as my family's official taste tester, I often find myself in suspicion of the whole, perfectly round cookie.  What gives them the right to be classified as "perfect"?  And why is broken considered bad by our modern day society?

The other day my friend and I were munching on some freshly-home-baked deliciousness when we reached the last one.  Of course the most diplomatic solution was to divide it in half and that is what we did.  Upon slicing it, the cookie crumbled on one side.  My friend--the nominated slicer--'s response was "Oopsies, I'm sorry.  Here, I'll take the broken piece."  Implying that since she was the one broke it, she would sacrifice and eat the broken half.  my conclusion:  We, the human race, have been bred since birth for the ultimate goal of perfection.  We rate and compare our life with perfection.

The media is always telling us what is beautiful and at the same time they are imprinting in our minds what isn't.

Currently skinny is right and chubby or overweight is disgraceful.  But a few hundred years ago plumpness was a sign of wealth, and being too slender was frowned upon.  So now, are we claiming that our ancestors were mistaken; because of course they can't both be perfect.  The suggestion is simply scandalous.  Even our parents must have some mental image of the "Perfect Child".  Hitler (though not to be confused with the parent) certainly did.  He attempted to cure the world of all of imperfections, striving to create a Master Race.  Discrimination against African Americans and homosexuals derived from the belief system that they are wrong; they are the equivalent to the broken cookie and therefore we should not associate with them, for we (the non-homosexuals and non-African Americans) are superior in the sense that we are closer to perfection.

We're our own worst critic is a fairly common phrase meaning that we judge our own work more harshly than anyone else.  This is because we look at something we've done and all the imperfections stand our as if they're highlighted in bold.  I believe that we don't just stand back and appreciate ourselves enough.  I am not so bold to say that we should stop striving to improve ourselves.  On the contrary, I believe that we should never stop growing individually, and should always try to make ourselves individuals.  We all need to step back sometimes, and realize that no one is perfect--every cookie has some kind of break.  Embrace your imperfections, for you are human!  And always eat the broken cookies, for round isn't always best.

passoverpassoverpassoverpassoverpassover....

I'm happy!  It's passover!  YAY!  (I'm Jewish if you didn't get that yet.  Did the whole 6 years at a Jewish day school thing, and with an hour of hebrew a day, I got almost fluent at it.  Then of course I change schools and practicly forget everything).  Most of my [jewish] friends think I'm pretty crazy for liking passover on account of the no bread for over a week thing, but I don't really mind.  My parents are such insane health freaks I barely even notice.  I mean, we don't even buy cereal.  For dinner last night I had brussel sprouts, colliflour, and onions, and then part of a sweet potato.  my parents are intense.  Oops, off topic.  Passoverpassoverpassoverpassoverpassover.... Got it.  My favorite part is the Sader.  When me and my cousins were little midget-ee things my dad would do this preduction type thing of the pleags.  He even had water that turned red when stirred!  (ok, well kind of this pink-lemonaid-ish type thing but still, at the age of 3 I was amazed).  And plus, I love watching the little people tackle each other for the affi comen (*gloating* I retired undefeated thank-you-very-much.  No one could find it before me.  NO ONE!  *evil cackle*).  andandandandand.....hmm....what else?

WOW total rant.  I blame it on sleep deprivation.  I blame everything on sleep deprivation.  Stupid insomnia.

adios, vaarwel, au revior, auf wiedersehen, arrivederci, adeus,

TOOTLES!

schadenfreude

scha^den^freu^de

noun

pleasure derived by someone from another person's misfortune

ORIGIN German, from schaden 'harm'+ Freude 'joy'

It is sick, disturbing, pathetic and you see it all over school.

I love this word.  Firstly because it's 13 letters.  (*cough cough* MIDNIGHTERS *cough.....cough*).  Secondly because I love finding a word that's definition fits an idea so perfectly.  I've been looking for this particular word for a while, and its satisfying getting accainted with it.  Do you not hate having something you want to express and can't find a word for it?  Anyways, back to my word.

There is this girl at my school, and she truly doesn't understand how to be a friend.  She's completely clueless in that area and it tends to offend people.  I honestly feel bad for her, and being the amazingly awesome, smart, compassionate, and modest person that I am, try to help her out.  This was a very agrivation experience.  But that isn't the point.  The point is what I observed while in her presance--and that was not only agrivationg, but it also succeded in making me mad.  What happened was this...

(We will now refer to previously mentioned person as O)

*O walks up to insignifigant person (IP) in locker room*

O:  Hey IP, you'll never guess what SAS (so and so) just said.

IP:  *Awkwardly*  What?

O:  Well, I overheard her talking, and she was saying how she thought you were like totally fake or whatever.  So bogus right?  Ya, she is such a witch!

IP:  She said that?  What's her problem anyway?

O:  Hate her!

*Proceeds to talk about SAS behind her back*

Ok, I know this isn't schadenfreude in the most outlined sense, but at the moment I am on a tangent and you'll have to bare with me.  You see, O was so desperate, she was willing to do anything to form some kind of relationship with anyone.  I mean, what is the point of telling IP?  All you achieve by doing so is making her feel bad/sad/mad/______.  And even after this happened, the 'friendship' O and IP now share is one born from a common hatred toward someone else.  That isn't a real friendship.  Wow.  That really didn't have too much to do with SCHADENFREAUE-ness.  But ah well.  It felt good to vent.  So maybe this wasn't the best example.  Oh!  Random thought!  This made me think of the *cringe* Clique series.  Yes, I read the first one, and am very ashamed, and you couldn't pay me to read any of the others.  But I thought that it would be unjust of me not to read the book before calling it trash, and the characters having no emotional depth what-so-ever.  Well, in the book the one major part that stood out to me and really made me feel uncomfortable was the part when the main character (starts with an M, no?)  Looks at her best friend and finds herself wanting the friend to cry.  This is awful.  AwfulAwfulAwfulAwfulAwfulAwfulAwful.

Alas, this is the end of my run, and for now I will gracefully retire to bed in a small effort at sleep.  ZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZzzzzzzzzzzzzZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz............

Buenos Noches.

~ari  :o)

do you know what music is?...

Music expresses that which cannot be put into words and that which cannot remain silent.  I believe in music the way some people believe in fairy tales.  But I hear it came from my mother and father.  Once upon a time they fell in love...                                                                         ~~Even Talor/August Rush

Do you know what music is?  Harmonic connection between all living things.

~~Wizard/August Rush

Are these not the two coolest quotes?!?!  If anyone has not seen August Rush, I deeply pity you.  For you are missing out BIG TIME.  This movie is so sweet and touching.  It was one of those crying tears of joy movies.  It was so much like Oliver Twist, except it must have been different because I hated that movie, and I wanted to turn around and go watch this masterpiece again.  And again.  And again.  Yes.  It was THAT GOOD.

So go see it!  Or rent it i guess, since it's kinda out of theaters.  But see it!  Trust me, you will walk away smiling :o)

27 hours and 40 minutes!

Just 27 hours and 40 minutes left of school until winter break!!!  *jumps for joy*

*stops jumping for joy and groans*  this week is the week teachers live for because they can cram as much work on us as humanly possible (and more still)  and when its too much, they just say its our fault we can't keep up because we're too busy dreaming about spring break to focus.  which is only true to an extent.  i mean, when the majority of your class is failing, it's most likely because of that teachers teaching abilities (or lack of).  Take for example the waked ideas of my (evil) science teacher (evil).  she (evil) prides herself with the (evil) fact that out of all of her (evil) classes, only  2 (evil) people got an (evil) A on her (evil) exam (evil).  and (evil) technically, they weren't even (evil) As, but both A (evil) minuses (evil).   when only 1(evil)% of your (evil) students gets (evil) an A on the (evil) exam--and an A (evil) minus at that (evil)--i think that (evil) you have to consider (evil) that maybe, just maybe, ITS NOT THE STUDENTS THAT ARE SCREWING UP (evil)!  not that i'm implying anything!  o no!  i lovelovelove mrs. memula! 

*gag*evil*flinch*roll eyes*evil*scowl*sigh*evil* evil*

ending on a happier note--I LOVE LOVE LOVE SARAH DESSEN'S BOOKS WITH A BURNING PASSION IN MY SOUL!  SHE IS AN AWESOMELY AMAZING AUTHOR!! THIS IS A FACT NOT AN OPINIONS!!  IF YOU HAVE NOT READ HER BOOKS THEN READ THEM!  NOW!!!

in the wise words of my fellow bouncer Tigger, "T T F N, ta ta for now"

a sigh or two

*sigh*

a snow day!  no school!  no homework!  yipee! right? WRONG!

i h8 snow.

i h8 winter.

i h8 the cold.

i h8 the colds and flu and chapped lips u get in winter.

*sigh*

no, i am not mental for not liking snow days.  i just don't like this particular snow day.  because for some stupid messed up reason that goes against all logic, my school actually made the right call when they thought it would be dangerous to get to school today.  go figure.  my dilema--not only is it too risky to drive to school, but there is too much snow to go anywhere fun.

so alas;  I AM BORED OUT OF MY SKULL.

in case no one got that, i will repeat it;

I AM BORED OUT OF MY SKULL!!!

the highlight of my day?  logging on to internet backgammon, seeing my mom logged on from her work, riding on her for being logged on at her work, and then going on to creaming her 5 games out of 5.

i have reached an all time low.

*SIGH*

mad at the awesomely amazing libba bray

i am extremely mad at Libba Bray.  Last week i had exams.  A few days before last week i bought Libba Bray's third book in her Gemma Doyal series.  Now, i love her books.  LoveThemLoveThemLoveThem.  But that was the problem.  I couldn't put it down.  Both of the nights before my exams i had stayed up reading until 3 in the morning.  and on top of that i have insomnia.  and i'm the kind of person that leaves studying till the last minute (i know shame on me) but because i couldn't put this book down, guess what i was doing instead of studying?!?  ya.  man it is gonna be so much fun to see the shade of purple my dad turns when report cards come home *cringe*.  so darn you Libba Bray for being such a good writer!!!  o wait, i almost forgot the last reason i was mad...SHE KILLED OFF MY FAVORITE CHARACTER!!!  and then i cried.  a lot.  but i mean...KARTIK!...i would rather Gemma have died.  i really would.  in some books i think it really works to have this kind of thing happen.  but not so much with The Sweet Far Thing.  it didn't help the story plot or anything.  and we didn't require another reason to feel bad for Gemma.  so...i don't get it.  why couldn't he have lived!  happily ever after?!?!?!?!  there is no justice in this world.  but besides the ending?  AWESOMELY AMAZING BOOK!  thank you libba bray for writing so well!  but i'm still mad at you for writing so well.  but anyhoo--read it.  love it.  dream about kartik.

ari :o)

Hallmark Day

*sigh*  Valentines day UHG!  It's creeping up on us freakishly fast, looming over us like an evil shadow.  I mean, the stupid holiday is an invention to promote hallmark cards.  If your in love with someone, a singing heart card is not going to change anything.  Have you ever read a book where destiny brings two characters together on Valentines Day?!?It is a chance for the INDUSTRY LEADERS OF AMERICA to act all high and mighty and say, "look and this [next company over] we sold 400 more boxes of chocolates than you!  Ha!  You suck!"  Then they go public and announce how happy they are that America is such a loving country.  Which isn't true.  I love the US and all, but we're totally the bullies on the block.

Sorry for the rant...I don't mean to sound anti-happiness or anything, cuz that's not it at all.  I just think that it's a sucky holiday that's all about making money.

Wow, all this negative energy has worn me out.

tootles!  :o)

First!

first post.  yipse!  hmm... what does one write about in their first blog? *ponder*

well, since this is going to be more of an online conversation with me, myself, and I (not expecting anyone to actually read this. *gasp*) maybe I should introduce me to myself.

Places I'm always wishing I were at.

1. Borders
2. Barns and Noble
3. Starbux
4. Sanibel Island, Fl
5. The Humane Society
6. BORDERS

Things I love to do.

1. Read
2. Play guitar
3. Watch House and Buffy the Vampire
4. Dream about Edward Cullen
5. Read
6. Make oatmeal-chocolate-chip cookies
7. Playing Backgamon
8. Ballet
9. Vollyball
10. Drink Tea
11. Throw popcorn up and try to ketch it in my mouth
12. Draw
13. Write
14. Read
15. MAKE LISTS

Best Books (not a matter of oppinion)

1. Ella Enchanted by Gail Carson Levign
2. Twilight Series by Stephanie Meyer
3. Pride and Prejudice by Jane Austin
4. The Gemma Doyle Series by Libba Bray
5. ANYTHING by Tamora Pierce
6. The Chronicles of Narnia by C. S. Lewis
7. The Sisterhood of the Traveling Pants Series by Ann Brashares
8. The Gallagher Girl Series
9. Girl at Sea by Maureen Johnson
10. The Truth About Forever by Sarah Dessen
11. The Queen Geek Social Club by Laura Preble
12. Sabriel by Garth Nix
13. Wuthering Heights by Emily Bronte
14. Hoot by Carl Hiaasen

Well, I think that's enough listing for the moment.  I should probably stop procrastinating and do my homework *sigh*

Tootles!  :o)